Although I lost my baby I cant imagine losing the children I will raise. Every article or website the catches my eyes are of the poor innocent children, men and women who have passed away because of the Israel forces.
If you are a parent and especially a mom, can you for one second close your eyes and picture the moment you became pregnant, the moment you felt the first kick, the moment you first glanced at your baby, the moment your child was calling you mommy or daddy, the moment your child is all grown up and responsible. Now imagine all that taken away from you with a single bullet.
GAZA is in need for are prayers. Almost each in every minute some innocent life in Gaza is taken away. The war in Palestine is more then just a Genocide, in my eyes the only thing that has stroke upon me is the repeating cruelty Hitler had done to the Jews being repeated to the Palestinians by Israel.
My only question is, why in the world would the people who had gone through hell repeat the torture they were in to innocent lives who are home?
You would think that as humans they would have the heart to keep the innocent lives out of the picture but instead they find it relieving to punish others the way they had been.
I pray for Palestine and pray for the parents who have lost there child. No one deserves to lose someone for something they had nothing to do with. We as humans created from one God have to raise our voices to stop the Genocide. Please if you do not know of what is going on in Palestine, go to you tube and watch the videos. They need are help and our prayers. MAKE DUA’A!!!


New Chapter

Why is it every time I think of my baby the people that hurt me during pregnancy always tag along. I have built so much hatred for everyone who knew how unhappy I was and how physically and emotionally tiered I had been during my 9 months pregnancy with Nazmi.
They say its not good to hold grudges, but how do I let them go if those people aren’t making it easy for me?
I know that it was fate losing my angel but it wasn’t fate having to live with the people that think less of me. There are many sides to my story and many reasons for why my babies stillbirth took place. My health was fine, unfortunately towards the end of my pregnancy I was in the stage of starting preeclampsia. It was way to soon to be able to affect my angel. My body physically however was exhausted and even though the people I lived with saw and new it they still took advantage of me and they still expected me to do and carry things I shouldn’t have. My emotions were all off board. Towards the end, I could hardly handle the people I loved because they weren’t helping me and they left me hanging. STRESS was the big issue for me during pregnancy. I can strongly say that I was 90% stressed every moment through it.
I cant however keep blaming myself and I know that doing that isn’t going to help me settle. I have decided however to begin a new chapter in my life. To fight for what makes me happy, to think of my life and the children I will be carrying. To do what’s right for me and to stop worrying about others who don’t worry about me.
After losing my little Angel I have become a different person, I lost trust in people and also lost love. I do hope it will all gain again but I do hope to find mostly love for the one person who should be giving me it.
Its never to late to keep dreaming and definitely never too late to stand up for your self. What ever is bond to happen in the future whether it is something I want or don’t want I am ready.